[Editor’s Note: as supportive as I am of the recycling activity, I don’t often recycle Lenten Devotions blog posts. This one, though, originally published in 2021, seemed particularly topical, given the hard times that trans people are going through in this moment in American history. And, coincidentally, it seems a legitimate response to three of this year’s LentBlog writing prompts: “Someone I need to support is…” and “Here’s an act that I can do today to honor God…” and “Here’s a story about a time when (a person or a community) ‘showed up for [someone] in a meaningful way…”]
A few years ago I had the opportunity to spend an August pre-season band camp week with a high school band out in western Massachusetts. I was expecting the usual: lots of sweat and sunblock; lots of learning of notes to play and places on the field to stand; and the relatively rare chance to hang out and in fact collaborate with my good friend the band director.
I got what I expected. Holy heck was it hot out there on the parking lot. But what I also got was … a moment that I will never, ever forget.
That moment involved an example of what I can only call quiet, collective, unconscious heroism.
A few framing questions:
Who are some of the most put-upon people who are younger than college age?
High school band kids.
What was the problem that had recently earned this particular high school some very dire headlines that it absolutely would not have wanted?
Bullying.
What was that “starred thought”, that catchy and useful phrase, which was offered to us by our college band director (the fellow who taught and inspired both my high-school band-director friend and me, all those years ago)?
“Band is a place for everyone.” Very often, band is the most helpful place to be, for those kids who feel like they have no other place to be.
So, back to the parking lot, and the rehearsal room, and the auditorium, and my work with the kids who played the brass and woodwind instruments, helping them learn and perfect their parts for that year’s halftime show.
There were about thirty of them, if I recall correctly. Small band, big sound. And my band director friend had given me a tiny heads-up about one of them. Not a behavior thing; not any kind of neuro-atypical thing (por ejamplo) that would have any impact on the rehearsals we were going to run.
But that flute player, the only blonde one? What was her thing? Not much, really … only that she was going through everything a high-school kid goes through when they’re working out a new gender identity.
Okay, I said. Truthfully, the only things that I really needed to know about these kids were: what’re their names and can they play?
I’m embarrassed to tell you that I cannot at this moment remember that flute player’s name. But, at the time, “oh yes,” my band-director friend said, “she can definitely play.”
Okay then.
The week began … it progressed … and it neared its ending. All the flutes could play the notes, and hit their drill sets, and move and play together quite well indeed.
And then it came time for the “friends and family show”. That’s when the pre-season camp’s work is done; the show is on the field in some condition or other; and the band would now like to show parents, and friends, and anyone else who happened along, the fruits of the labor.
So an impressively large contingent of parents, and friends, and former band members too, gathered on the edge of the parking lot under the shade … and waited for the Mighty Marching Whatevers to make their entrance from the band room across the way.
In the band room, the band and gathered and made a big circle, so everyone could see everyone else. One last pep talk from the director and instructional staff. If this had been an athletic team, it would have been: one last “defense on three; one, two, THREE…”
In this case, though, the band was led by its fine director through an exercise that she had been introduced to at a professional development activity of her own, some years before.
Ordinarily I am wary of these “team building activities”, these “ice breakers”. They can be anywhere from inspirational to an utter waste of time. And even the useful ones can end up being, well, just kind of “meh”, if there’s not buy-in from the participants.
This one was interesting.
First, the kids all counted off — one, two, one, two, all the way around. Each group would have a role to play; then those roles would be reversed and we’d play again.
The first group stood facing away from the center of the circle, eyes closed. (To be clear, they had been well-prepared for this; it was not a surprise. Also, they had just spent a week getting to know each other very well. These were important factors.)
The second group then walked slowly around the inside of the circle, stopping at each outward-facing person and doing one of three things for them, each of which signified something specific about the band camp week just finished.
It’s been awhile; but I think the idea was something like: gently placing one hand on the person’s head meant “I’ve been pleased to meet you for the first time, this week” … gently tapping fingertips on each shoulder meant “you and I were friends before, and are better friends now, after this week” … and gently pressing hands down upon each shoulder meant “I’ve come to care about you, this week”.
Yeah … in the wrong metaphorical hands: very squishy. Very “I’m OK, You’re OK”. Heaven help us if the participants don’t take it seriously. And in these days of being very very careful about physical contact, it could have been anywhere from risky to just plain wrong.
But in the case of this particular band, I thought as the exercise began, it might just be interesting.
The exercise finished, my band director friend gave her charges one last word of advice — “have fun” — and the band collected its instruments and flags and began to head out the back door toward the parking lot.
And I noticed that my new blonde flute player friend had tears streaming down their face.
I looked at my band-director friend, near whom I happened to be standing, and pointed at our blonde flute player, and asked a question with my face only.
My band-director friend smiled. She’d been watching specifically during that exercise.
“Every single person pressed down on the shoulders.”
I had gotten to like that band, that week. They had just the right sense of “band hype” without being fake about it; they actually seemed to enjoy working hard to accomplish something; they always made sure no one felt left out, on or off the field.
But from that moment — a moment which I really, really doubted they’d planned in advance — a moment that the entire band collectively may not even have realized they’d created — I really, really, REALLY liked that band.
It was a moment of quiet, collective, unconscious heroism.
Again, I’m willing to believe that they might have had zero collective understanding of what they had collectively done — but for all they knew, they might have turned a kid’s life around. Maybe even saved it, conceivably.
Do people really think I’m okay? that flute player may have been wondering.
Or are they all just humoring me?
Are they all putting on a good show when they’re really lying to me?
Before that afternoon, that flute player may have had no very good idea what the answers to those questions were.
They did now.
And even if they didn’t have answers to those questions regarding the entire rest of the student body who weren’t in that band … they knew what these forty-odd kids’ answer was, individually and collectively.
We’ve got your back.
Those kids played a heck of a show that afternoon.
-Rob Hammerton